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If you feel you are not making progress, it is because your mind is a terrible obstacle. Pat yourself on the back and reward yourself for all that you have done.

If you forget why you are on the chosen path, remind yourself why it is you do what you love. Focus on all the positives and eliminate the negatives that may try and creep in. Walking is done one step at a time.

Remind yourself often of what is important to you. Family, friends, laughter and your amazing ability to attract new and wonderful people in your life. Find whats REALLY important to you and do that.

Our mind has a way of telling us that we are not good enough, when the reality is that we, in our current state, are perfect and need not achieve anything other than right now, because there is no past and the future is a dream.

Take time to appreciate you and all that you do, for those around you as well as yourself. You are beautiful and magnificent at this moment and NO ONE can take that away from you. Go watch a sunset, put on your favorite music, watch children play in the park…just be.

The best of your life is waiting for you right now, not in the future or in some distant memory from your past, but right now. Give yourself the love admiration and respect you deserve. Brush yourself off and be in love.

Until Next time…

Mazzy Star

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Into Dust

Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Inside me today
Around broken in two
Til your eyes share into dust
Like two strangers turning into dust
Til my hand shook with the weight of fear
I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing colder
I could feel myself under your fate
Under your fate
It was you, breathless and torn
I could feel my eyes turning into dust
Into strangers, turning into dust
Turning into dust
Turning into dust

We all have expectations and the expectations can be end results. Things such as health, happiness, wealth abundance and friends. It is good to have such a wide array of expectations, because these are the fabrics of manifesting the life that you so desire and become the formula for manifesting your dreams.

However, expecting your life to follow a certain road, such as becoming a movie star, making a top ten album on itunes, accumulating a certain amount of wealth, having someone fall in love with you-especially a particular person, or deciding that some diet, invention or some idea is going to be your salvation, is messing with the ways of the universe. Don’t limit the your options.

Many people seem to think that i am superhuman. I am here to advise you that I am human just like everyone else. I have emotions, I have good days, bad days and then there are times when i just break down and cry.

Sometimes life presents so many things at your feet that it can be overwhelming. This morning, after a lack of sleep, I woke up and put on some music that I knew would get me into that emotional place, walked out on the balcony, after getting ready for work, looked at the slope behind my room at the Hotel Park city, and got into that place and just let go…and cried.

Some days are better than others….some days are very good and some days you just can’t put your finger on what is going on inside of you. You just accept that you don’t feel like you always do and then move on. Today seems to be one of those days.

As I was crying on my balcony and feeling whatever was going on, I began to realize that maybe I am different. Maybe my calling is different in the sense that I am not destined for conventional. Maybe my life is destined for the service of others. As I sat there and realized that I have a gift, a gift that people can release and open up to me, I realized it is almost like being a superhero.

I imagined being a superhero, like superman or spiderman…destined for a life of isolation and the fact that love may not find me…because its not in the cards. I can’t really say, I can say that I know love is real. Dictionary.com defines love as “a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.” another definition is “affectionate concern for the well-being of others:” My love for others will always exist. I love everyone and enjoy crossing their paths in order to help them overcome some obstacle in their life. For intensive purposes, I am really referring to the former of the love definitions.

Maybe the universe decides or needs me to be absent of that kind of love and to be free to do at a moments notice. In that, I am happy to serve, but part of me becomes sad. Never being able to give myself 100% to someone that you love (either for fear of not being loved back or because maybe its not the Universes plan for me).

I sit content and just be. Trying to remove any emotions that I have, for also knowing that love is my weakness. It breaks me down and removes my ability to think on a logical level and therefore causes me to make decisions that may not be best for my future. In all actuality, i just have to be…I have to feel… I have to constrain…

until next time…

So it hit me like a ton of bricks last night. Here I am on New Years eve without a thing to do. I just put in a long day on the jobsite hauling 250+ sheets of 1/2 inch and 5/8 inch sheet rock into a house. I was a little exhausted and tired but ready to have a beer or two. I lined up plans, but as the night progressed, they fell through and by 10pm, I decided to turn out the lights and go to bed.

I realized truly for the first time what it is like to truly be alone on a New years. Part of it could be, the company that I chose to keep and another part could be that I am just different. I turned my phone off and decided to just be in the moment and feel what it felt like. I felt my mind thinking and telling me that something was wrong with me or that I am not a worthy person. I thought about the people I may have hurt in the past, specifically this year. I just really stayed in the feeling place of being in the now.

As I stayed in that place, it became more evident to me that I was exactly where I need to be on this New Years eve, Not in some bar drinking and unable to connect with real people because of clouded judgement, but rather in my bed, resting, from a hard days work.

I begin to realize that on this new day of this new year, some of us are called to a different purpose. I look inward and see that many people are drawn to me for counsel and advice. I haven’t been successful at relationships and I attribute that to the calling in my life. Being in a relationship may slow me down or possibly take away my focus. You have to be broken down in order to realize where you really stand in light of things.

Please hear me: I am in no way saying that I hate my life, or that I am miserable, or that I have been short changed. I am stating that we all have differnt callings in life and to be present enough in your own life to realize what that voice may be saying.

So as I begin 2010, I look forward to the spiritual journey that I will be taking. Not focused so heavily on how much I can make or save but rather the ability to help those around me and build them up as well as well as increase my spriritual awareness. I look forward to the connections that I wil make this year and the significance of where I am in life at this moment. I look forward to helping others become successful at whatever that may be. I also revel in the moment that I am in…right now.

May you have a blessed 2010 and I look forward to continuing this journey and the discussion.

Until next time…